6/17/2011 01:09:00 AM
Friday, June 17, 2011
wonder how lifes been for you lately.
check the moon out tonight!
sadly its being covered by the clouds once again but still, its so beautiful :)
why is it so that everyone has to leave the country at the same time? ):
somehow, lifes been feeling a little empty lately. as though a part of me is missing..
sigh. lets just say, despite dreading the last week of the hols, really can't wait for next week to start.
found this quote..
When I miss you, sometimes I listen to music or look at pictures of you, not to remind me of you but to make me feel as if I'm with you. It makes me forget the distance and capture you. by Unknownsweet.
The silence isn't so bad till I look at my hands and feel sad. Cause the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly.
-Owl City, Vanilla Twillight
♥
6/16/2011 04:25:00 AM
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Okayy. Soo the moons covered by the dark clouds due to the rain.
Pretty upsetting but despite not being able to see a red moon, on the bright side?
Got to see a really red sky :/
♥
6/16/2011 02:15:00 AM
wish you were here.
morning, bein a moon dweeb, planning to stay up to catch the lunar eclipse later 8D kinda the only one awake in the whole house right now and supposed to wake my sis and mum later to catch it as well but pretty worried cause the moons gone out of sight :/ bleagh. it will be such a pity if we missed it ): imagine seeing a blood red moon with Saturn, Jupiter and Mars next to it! it will be such a beautiful sight :P
day didnt go as productive as it was supposed to be but achieved quite an amount before my bro convinced me to join him in this game :/ finally went for a jog after soo very long and feeling so much better :) and hopefully, will be able to have a good nights sleep tonight. keep having nightmares, flashbacks and dreams for the past few days, interesting.
Dear buddy,
Its been a long time since we've last talked or seen one another and the letter that I wrote for you months ago is still with me. Funny huh? But for now, let me express it all right here. Saw the music video online and just wanted to tell that no, i've not forgotten despite it being years ago. And if I misinterpreted it all wrongly or misread it once again, then that would be pretty embarrassing but still allow me to apologise if so. But then, if it was, then let me thank you.
and no matter which way it goes, let me take this opportunity to tell you something.
Last night i had a dream that everything was back to normal. Nothing seemed to bother us cause no matter what happened, it was just you and I against all odds upon this Earth, against those storms. We were laughing so wholeheartedly, smiling just like we were before, when our minds were just filled with so much innocence and purity. Nothing stood in our way cause no matter what obstacles we faced, we always stood by each other and crossed it despite all. Suddenly, another vision hit me, which was a whole online conflict. Something bout hatred and blame.
But hey, no matter what, just wanted to tell you that, despite us not really getting the chance to catch up lately, want to let you know that I still respect and treasure our friendship with a 100 percent. And no matter what happens in the future, i've got your back all the way. Life is never easy and at times, we might face stressful situations or incidents which just leave you clueless.
May not exactly be the first person you approach during such, which is totally understandable especially since its been such a long time. BUT. Really want to reinforce that no matter what happens, and no matter what difficulties you face, I am ALWAYS here for you and supporting every single decision you choose to make. So, never feel alone, cause you've got this weirdo behind you throughout this tedious journey of life.
Know words are not enough to thank for you but really, if not for you, I would not be who I am today.
You've got not just my word, but promise as well
Take care my dear best friend :)
♥
6/15/2011 01:23:00 AM
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
missing you so very much.
Morning.
Feeling soo very comfortable with how the June hols and life has been lately but then, 2 more weeks till mid years start one again.. Bahh. Can't believe I'm saying this but, wish life would just feel like this the whole way through. or even better, for everything to go back to the sc days and live every day so very perfectly :)
bahh.
Still down with a bloody annoying headache as well as a slight fever since sunday and panadols aint exactly working. Havent been able to sleep well for the past few nights as well, which is pretty whacked up. Plus to add on to the whackiness, have been having nightmares for the past few nights. Kinda afraid of sleeping tonight.. Heh.
Imagine this.
You are stuck in this hallway,
constantly running and turning back to see them.
Them, who take forms of shadows as they chase you from behind.
Their eyes filled with nothing but emptiness, frustration and ignorance.
You on the other hand,
who feels nothing but desperation and fear to escape,
continue to run past all these doors and just straight forward.
And no matter how much you run,
you go no where with only those shadows and doors in sight.
Each door holds the unspeakable behind it, a secret yet to be told.
Opening one door could lead to either death, or perhaps happiness for the risk taken.
There will eventually be a day,
when you give in to your desperation and fear
and choose to open one of these, "unexpectful" doors,
seeking it as a way of escaping and a place of safety.
And when that day comes for each and everyone of us?
Don't say I didn't warn you but,
think of this way.
What would have happened if you didn't give in to these emotions,
and yet in fact, continued running the whole way through.
Yes you've been running for a long time now but,
what IF you, could have reached the end if you persevered on for another few minutes?
but then again. emotions ARE emotions. and emotions aren't easy to control.
♥
6/13/2011 01:04:00 AM
Monday, June 13, 2011
Why have you you returned.
Haven't you made the decision to ignore? To hide? To shun?
And so as to speak, to leave.
My minds playing tricks on me once more.
Stop haunting me in my dreams will you?
Then I saw you again.
One who made me afraid of sleep.
Why have you returned once more?
Are you back to haunt me or tell me something?
I hate that smile on your face.
One so forced and heartless.
Watching you walk away with your head held high,
still recalling how your shirt was white.
Walking away quickly but yet in small steps just like how you usually do.
With everything repeating itself once more,
as I'm left only having to stare at your back facing me.
Taking your final leave as you walk out of my life once again.
♥
6/10/2011 09:59:00 PM
Friday, June 10, 2011
What’s wrong with me, I cant stop worrying right now.
Today was one of the best days of my life and will never forget it. ever.
Heyyy you. Yes you. You are one of the most amazing people I’ve met in my entire 17 years of being alive.
I’m so sorry if I was a little too quiet today but, I’m honestly grateful for having the chance to share this special day with you.
Just do me a favour and trust me on something, I’m not going to judge you. Nor am I going to hurt you. Trust me on that.
You taught me a lot. And despite meeting only a few weeks ago, it seems like we’ve known one another for months, or even years. It’s amazing how much we have in common and yes, no matter how many times I’ve already said it. I really can’t believe how far we’ve come till today.
I know it’s going to be a bumpy ride but I am NEVER going to ditch you or run away cause of fear. Yes I feel fear that I will not deny, but fear for you. Yes a little afraid of them but, most fearful of how much you are going to be braving through right now. And even worst, the disability of not being by your side and giving you that strength you are really in need of right now. But even so, I’m here for you. NEVER forget that or else I’m going to come after you.. Not being cheesy but despite not being there with you physically, will always be here for you no matter how far the distance may be.
You were right. The place feels so very empty after you left. It was only on my way back when it hit me really hard against the face that you were gone once again. Perhaps I sound a little aloof or even, am mad but, I’m already missing you. Is that bad?
I do not find any fault towards you saying those words over and over again because I too feel the same way.
No matter what happens in the future, like we discussed, the past is the past and the present is the present. We WILL pull through this together alright?
Just give me your hand and I promise I will never let it go.
Seriously, how could I ever let go at a moment like this when you need me most.
And even so, to take care of you.
Let us stay strong and do our best alright?
I do not doubt you at all nor have I ever lied to you.
Will you be so willing to hold onto my hand as we go back to square 26?
I love you too. And don’t you dare forget that.
And just like in the first sms I sent you, promise to be here for you no matter what.
ps: if anyone bugs you, swear i will punch them for you. and that reminds me, we need to go axe shopping :/
♥
6/05/2011 07:54:00 PM
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Sometimes in life, you will face moments when you can find no possible word to describe how you feel.
think theres something wrong with me.
theres so much to say yet nothings coming out in words.
man. gonna go off and read a book or something. heads starting to hurt..
peace.
♥
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