4/29/2011 09:27:00 PM
Friday, April 29, 2011
irritation slowly accumulating and being shown more obviously.
doubt the person i really want to say this to, will see this but, its kinda true.
BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
heh, venting of frustrations :P ^
its finally the weekends and ive got lots to accomplish! ranging from homework to own personal stuff? and of course, this monday is labour day! so very very, grateful for the holiday cause it means, good chance for rejuvenating one's energy :) feel like a battery :/ parents bought this large supply of waffle mix to make waffles after craving for it for so long sooo, guesssing they are gonna make lots of it during the weekends? O.O
well, theres this really bad habit ive got to get rid off and kind of tend to feel awkward a little too easily at certain periods of time :/ but have nothing against the person/people or anything but, mind tends to switch off and blank out at random moments, making it feel as though im in this huge daze.
:/
being so random :P looking forward to watching the rally with ze family later :D
buh byee :)
♥
4/28/2011 11:43:00 PM
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Hellooo. It's been a while especially when you've got so much to say but don'tknow how to voice or write it out. Have been eating alot lately and have just started controlling my diet. And kinda have to cause at first have been buying those eightbucks cheesecakes and wolfing it down to feel better and gradually, stopped running as much and now, eating alot pretty much means munching on something at every second of the day. Just have this addiction to chew on something or sometimes not even feeling full after a large meal. So yeahh got to control in terms of health and not over exerting the amount my stomach can digest or else gonna get issues ):
Finally got the chance to go to USS with aga and Maryanne and it was awesomeeeee :P got freaked out though cause not exactly the type who can take rides and we took the revenge of the mummy thrice and well, kinda backed out on the second one soo they went thrice and I went twice :/ still have this huge bruise from holding onto the handle o.o can't wait to meet up with the whole clan soon :) and of course can't believe the smiles on the faces of a few old ladies when they got off the ride o.O
kk, plannin to sleep and wake up early to finish all ze unfinished work sooo, nights :)
The warm and bright eyes which used to meet mine, turned into an icy glare that barely made it through.
That look of happiness in return, turned into forward looking gaze or one that never looked back.
The smile and acknowledging of simple words of greeting, turned into a look or turn away as you just so simply walk by.
That person who I thought I could get to know more, turned into a pure stranger leaving me clueless and questioning what I'm doing.
That person has most possibly erased me from their memory.
And little do that person know what that person has done and brought about this huge change in me.
♥
4/18/2011 12:26:00 AM
Monday, April 18, 2011
Somehow, I'm still hoping to see you tomorrow. But then, something tells me that I'm being stupid and it's definite that I won't.
If you need a shoulder to lean on, I'm here for you.
If you need someone to talk to, I'm here for you.
If you need someone to call in the middle of the night, I'm here for you.
If you feel like the worlds about to end, I'm here for you.
If you feel as though you've lost your way, I'm here for you.
So if you are feeling alone, you aren't,
cause I'm in fact, here for you.
So please, remember that alright?
♥
4/15/2011 11:08:00 PM
Friday, April 15, 2011
at the end of the day, you are going tor realise that everything? is somehow linked to one another.
make use of the forgotten hint which had been dropped.
thoughts like these mess with your head..
soo today. didnt exactly have one of the best mornings i imagined it might had turned out to be ): couldnt find a cab since 635 this morning till715 and had to resort to going straight to the stadium instead of school. taekwando competition. was pretty confident in moves and positioning but during that time period of standing infront of the panel of judges, whole body started to shake really badly which affected the movements and messed it up, big time. kinda upset and disappointed bout it but heyy whats been done, has been done.
shall take it as a lesson and learn how to chillax and perhaps compete again if given the opportunity next year? :/ but after the whole thing, it was pretty fun :) ate alot today though :P
havent really been so hyped up bout running at night ever since some ipod incident plus somehow that mentality is slowly depleting :P soo tried to check how much it was to use the nearby gym and found out its prettae expensive so trying to find another resort :/ maybe i should start saving up for a treadmill :P which is gonna take me about 1 year plus? :( man.
on the bright side! its friday! which means, sleep early and regenerate energy to face the upcoming weekdays which will approach at a blink of an eye, day! :/ bahh.
nights!
why did we start building something so beautiful only when things are about to end?
♥
4/13/2011 06:00:00 PM
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
beautiful ain't it?
♥
4/11/2011 08:37:00 PM
Monday, April 11, 2011
If I could, I would my dear. But for now, if I did when I believe I still can? It’s all wrong and not only that, I should learn how to take a few steps back and turn away.
i left not because i wanted to, but if i stayed, things would get awkward. im so sorry
Arghh. Need to get rid of a bad habit.
Soooo. Its been raining pretty heavily for the past few days and ended up walking home in the rain :/ might have to blow dry my bag later :/ but despite all the trouble, seriously love the rain. And when you walk in the rain, that feeling of washing away all your troubles gets imprinted into your mind but of course when you go under shelter, you’ll start shivering and wondering where you were back there.
Bahh. But most importantly, really hope it doesn’t rain this sat cause we’ll be having a clan meet up and it might have to be postponed to another place if it does ): the thought of seeing everyone again really gets me pretty hyped up :P
Call it a blessing,
assuring its an opportunity that im utterly grateful for,
but somehow?
Why does it feel like a wake up call.
Maybe im just tired.
♥
4/10/2011 02:37:00 AM
Sunday, April 10, 2011
whats been done, has been done.
♥
4/05/2011 11:51:00 PM
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
impotent.
missing all of this so very much..
went back to sc to collect the olevels cert and booklet today and the moment i stepped into the school, a whole gust of emotions just slammed into my face. then it hit me really hard, how long its been since i last got the chance to walk down this path and how much i miss everything. the place, friends, teachers.
as in the people in pjc are really nice and my classmates are seriously awesome peeps but, the feeling is just different, i guess. slowlyyy.
but yet, really grateful for still meeting up or keeping in contact with my buddies and teachers.
bahhh. well, on the brighter side, theres cca tomorrow! and on the brighter note, IM GONNA SLEEP NOWWW :D MUAHAHAH :) heh. so drained out. and really thankful for the meal pearl and i met up for after school :)
plus another 30minutes down :) made a deal with celine and shall succeed in staying fit yo! :D
may tomorrow be another new day of no dozing off-s during lectures! :D
nighties!
Do you know the pain of watching another go,
having so much to say which still remains unsaid?
Stealing glances and screaming in your head for the other,
hoping that person would telepathically read your mind,
hoping the person would just get up, walk over to you
and say just a simple word of, "hello".
Now its my turn,
I've felt it before but, today?
Its my turn to get up and walk away,
even if you may not be feeling the same way,
i'm just going to take my first few steps away instead of towards.
Be it whatever emotion,
sense the end of a chapter and the beginning of a new one.
nights :)
♥
4/03/2011 01:33:00 AM
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Despise seeing a good friend upset.
After withstanding all your nonsense, you blew a punch across my face. So now what, am I supposed to just wipe off the blood and smile with amusement and move along or swing one back in return.
You know how there are always phrases which says things like, oh. No matter how much you want someone, you don’t deserve that person. Or don’t deserve to meet that person. Or something like, the person whom you want the most is the person you shouldn’t want the most, etc? Used to agree, to a certain extent. Now? Hear me out.
Everyone deserves to meet everyone and no one is never not worthy of meeting someone. Talking along the lines of how its usually bout liking someone, yeah. Sometimes we tend to like someone who we know, might not like us back, but how would you know it’s not possible? And another thing, even if we never got be with whoever, think bout it this way. It was an honour to have met that certain someone or people, etc. cause at the end of the day, sometimes we may feel overjoyed or sometimes even hurt, but, these incidents strengthen us at the end and teach us something new which we might have never thought we would learn.
And a new conclusion recently learnt? Have you ever thought of it this way?
Sometimes there are people who just don’t deserve you, to be in their life.Sounds harsh, yes? But think bout it from another perspective and perhaps you’ll understand where im heading at.
You know something. Have a really strong feeling that ever since we took our final bows, everything in your mind had been washed away, blown away and forgotten simply by a passing breeze or gust of wind. And you know why its ironic? Its how someone out there still has those memories imprinted within one’s mind while you on the other hand has nothing. But hey, don’t blame you cause since the beginning, we’ve always been stating the obvious, that nothing was there. But then, you were the only one who made it this far, do you know that?
Don’t smile at me.
Don’t laugh and ask how ive doing.
I know what you’ve been up to,
and apart from the fact we used to be close years ago,
gives you little right to do whatever you did.
Do you seriously view others, like that.
Apart from all energy being drained out from a recent upsetting news,
honestly can’t be bothered to stay and talk,
or simply just smile back at you.
So if you found me cold for walking away,
maybe youll figure it out one day.
♥
4/02/2011 12:26:00 AM
Saturday, April 2, 2011
why is it so that i can't seem to breathe when you do that.
dont you just hate it when someone you cant stop thinking bout just refers you as, simply, you. or sometimes never even appearing once in that person's mind.
its been such a long, painful day.
yesterday/ today was the first April fools which went by without much tricks or random thoughts in one's mind. got back at 11 plus after attending a few stuff and have tuition early in the morning tomorrow. planning to sleep after this and wake up early to finish up the remaining pile of homework.
minds feeling really blank right now and can't seem to think of any words to phrase the collision of emotions.
cant believe im saying this but. going to do this for you and hope it all goes well.
wish me luck.
♥
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