Shouldn't be blogging but, yeah... something really irritating happened yesterday(friday). Its just so argh... i bought a present for someone but at the end she just did something. and i can tell you that something is really hurtful and irriating. argh...what is your problem? seriously.
The night before, i took out all the money in my piggybank,slowly counted them and placed them in my wallet.When i woke up,i went to school,thinking about what to get for you, remembering the promise i made for you a year before.Went with a friend, almost spending my whole recess in the bookshop choosing a present for you.And when it almost ended, i found it. thinking one might not be enough, i bought two cause of the period of time.wondering if you forgotten.Anxiously waiting for the day to go by and when it finally came.The bell rang and i ran out the classroom as our recesses started at diffrent times, and started looking around for you.Finally i found you, i ran up to you and called your name, yet you turned and started whispering,"oh shes talking to me."I clutched the present tightly in my hands,telling myself"i am going to fail." i repeated the words yet you continued. I walked away but something told me to go back and i did.I repeated what i did and you did the same. Soon i knew i failed despite what my friends said, i continued to walk on. I went to the court searching for basketballs but none of them were in sight. I just walked on and soon i heard footsteps and saw them. true friends. i suddenly let my emotions take over me and walked on. "oh she is talking to me." these words echoed in my mind and the actions she did repeated again and again. I heard voices and came out. There stood true friends who were always there for me. I started saying words and they patiently listened. I will not make the same mistakes that you did, I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery and I will not betray the way you did. and i would like to thank wenqian, siti, jiaping and charissa who had been there for me during that period of time and those who made me laugh that day.
Rage overcame me, not ablling to overcome it. Tears started to sting my eyes, it flowed downwars and burned. I felt so much rage and never had i felt this before. Thinking about it everyday, forcing to fake, a smile and laugh. i really detest all of this. i detest you, i am sorry but i really do.
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9/20/2007 12:14:00 AM
Thursday, September 20, 2007
Good morning! Eoys are coming and arriving nearer and nearer as time goes by, many interesting things had happened for the past few days =) Today, went to play basketball with jiaping,wenqian,siti and zahrah today at the court with netballs and they were really good plus stayed back for a while with wenqian to study for eoys. Sometimes after a looong day of studying, its also good to go out for fresh air and do sports! It enables us to keep fit plus its good for health! =D haha Posted a new song called 1973 from James Blunt, its nice... History, empires, kingdoms, dynasties.... so much about the past, its like a blast to the past! History andLit paper on the first day of the exams which is on 1st october, ah.... Shall return soon, this is not the last you had seen me! I will be back! MUA HA HA HA!!! *lifts cape and dissapears in a puff of smoke*
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9/15/2007 03:27:00 PM
Saturday, September 15, 2007
The end of year exams are reaching! Just made a table for when to study for which subjects and stuff, kinda happy about it =) Yup, very late right? Pasted it on the wall infront of me. Last thursday during history, my history teacher was writting the keywords on the board, so had to write it down and when i finished writting, i noticed she as taking something out of my classmates hair. Everyone was wondering what she was doing and soon, we found out. It was a ladybug without spots. She reached out her finger and started exclaiming that it was very beautiful and was the first time she saw a ladybug without spots. It was true, it was cute and was also the first time i saw a ladybug without spots. She started walking to each of our desks and showing it to us. It looked small and red. haha Went to do research and found out some just have no spots while some have as many as twenty four.It was so cool! The spotless ladybug..=]
Once there was a bug, it was no ordinary bug, but a ladybug. It was during history, when we discovered a mystery. A bright red dot, appeared on the spot, without its spots. That day i've learnt something, not just the ladybug thing. But my poems are really bad - ing. =D
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9/14/2007 10:07:00 PM
Friday, September 14, 2007
One by one someone gets hurt. Like an arrow piercing through the human heart, fresh blood slowly dripping down. Each drop symbolises the pain you felt, and the sad times you had encountered. Right now and back then, I had felt this again and again. When i thought everythings peaceful, it all starts all over again like the cycle of life.
Right now, I see alot of hurt, i see alot of pain. Is this all really necessary? Didn't we all get along very well in the past? As i recall those memories, i feel the arrow.
As i read the posts on the blogs, i think to myself, "Is it my fault?". I read the words, tears and hurt. I apologise for everything i've done. I really dislike times like this.
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9/13/2007 12:25:00 AM
Thursday, September 13, 2007
AH!!!!!!! LIFE IS FILLED WITH STRESS AND WORRIES, SOMEBODY KILL ME!!! ( Wait! I don't mean it literally so keep your knife or gun! )
Good morning, tomorrows friday, that means tomorrows theres the chinese shuo hua yi shu thing, good luck everyone! =) Just updated a song called Tired Of Loving This Way by Colin Raye.
All my life i've been falling apart, Been tumbling down quick first right from the start I never learned just get up and go on Until I'm just knocked right off of my feet
- From, (Caesars)Its not the fall that hurts
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9/12/2007 06:38:00 PM
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Today was fustrating, found out alot of things i didn't know in the past andgot insulted by people i don't even know or met before. why can't you just let it go? you say you forgive but then the next thing you know its not true. how many times had this happened? "i forgive you but don't talk to me"? huh? i don't understand. I feel so fustrated about this. i see you run and hide. i heard what you said during family night i can seriously tell you that you don't deserve it. really don't. its been how long and you still bring it up. you even tell me through messages and i even hear it from my levelmates. fine. spread the word, make more hate, do whatever you want but i can tell you, i really really really can't take it anymore. i really can't take it. really. We are not even in the same level and we hardly see each other.whatever i say, whatever i do, you will decline so fine. honestly there nothing much i can do.
Today, Agatha,Linda ,Siti,Yingying and i went exercising and talked alot about stuff. We started moving from place to place, from the fitness corner, to the steps near the track, the track, the court and the swing. It was really fun and in a way fit. Played "tennis" which is just catching and throwing something but if we just imagine then yup, it would be "tennis"! haha Oh, i feel myself shaking and the windows are also shaking now. making me feel kinda dizzy... ah.. i think there might be another earthquake, do you feel it too? o.O Oh andThanks Agatha, Linda, Siti and Yingying once again! =)
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9/11/2007 11:32:00 PM
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
I saw her, looking down on me. What was she thinking? Her hand covering her mouth. Was she thinking about.... Telling me something bad? Overusing her power? Something unpleasant? Negative stuff? But without knowing it, I was wrong. She was thinking of nothing near it. Her hand was covering a smile and she was only thinking of one friendly word, hello.
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9/08/2007 06:27:00 PM
Saturday, September 8, 2007
Today we had to go to Toa Payoh to promote redcross, was grouped with danielle, jiaping, siti and wenqian. The residents were ok i guess and we met a resident who was really nice, she told us that she used to be in red cross and she had this really small dog with her and she was really kind =] At 10 plus we had our break and the whole group bought Hot Fudge Sundae and wenqian named it Fudgey Club. Hot fudge sundae, shall never forget the amount of chocolate and vanilla... o.O haha Can still remember the houses that had dogs, danielle, jiaping and siti and i would be looking at it in awe while wenqian would start jumping back and exclaiming away, haha.... Siti and danielle would be listenning careful and guessing how many dogs that the owner has.So, today i have learnt alot of stuff, jiaping's and wenqian's chinese are seroiusly good, siti's malay is seriously good, never stand between the lift doors ,hot fudge sundaes are nice and arrows pierced into eyes are not a pleasant sight =]
Heres my second video and yup bad at lip singing.. =)
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9/07/2007 04:40:00 PM
Friday, September 7, 2007
Yo! Blogger can finally post videos!!! haha... so tried to upload this video and see what happens. I like to make videos with my handphone so i am planning to post some and see how i can improve so... yup please leave comments, thanks! =) Ps. the video kinda lags
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9/06/2007 11:44:00 PM
Thursday, September 6, 2007
YO YO YO!!! Today scgs was on tv! For the science competition! SO COOL!!! haha For the whole half hour was with my sis cheering away towards the tv, good time, good times, haha... SCGS won!!! YAHOOO!!!!!!!! haha.. GO SC! SC ROCKS!!! Haha =]
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9/05/2007 03:38:00 PM
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
Last friday(31/9) was aces day,teachers day and family night! A very busy day!!! haha but was fun =) Aces day, everyone had to dance the moves that were planned out and even had free dance, haha... teachers day. Had to help out for the lunch and was assigned to karoke, was very excited. Got to watch performances performed and had to go help out at the lunch. After the lunch, got to carry the stuff back, and got tricked. Went home at 5 plus and when i saw my handphone, i changed and ran back to school and met the other redcrosses there. Had to do fa duty during family night and it was seriously cool and fun plus the first time attending family night =D When I finished my duties, i was with jingrui, danielle and linda and it was so fun =) we went to get icecream and popcorn and sat at the spiral staircase to eat it and raced with jingrui to see who finished their icecream first and at the end, she won. Congrats jingrui! =) We also stood near the amphi and sang along to the songs like pump it by black eye peas and umbrella was so funny, all of us were singing along, haha... Also helped out with the bouncy castle for a short while with mariann, miranda and tisa. Was with michelle and carolyn at the amphi looking around and walking around, the amphi was so cool! It was so Disco-ish with all the lights, music and stuff. When we were dismissed, danielle, carolyn and i went to get cottoncandy and at the end it was raining candy, and someones bag kinda got some one it and before we could wash it of it disapeared o.O wonder what happened to it at the end.... Had to walk home at 10.30pm. At first i was staying calm but soon, i started to feel afraid and ran all the way home. hehe... At 11plus started to pack for gib the next day so yup, busy day. =]
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9/04/2007 11:51:00 PM
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
Just came back from GIB today, 4 days 3 nights camp. Day1, woke up feeling very tired and checking my bag for stuff that i might had forgotten to bring, ate breakfast and went to school at 7 plus. Sat with my levelmates and started to chat with them as we all gathered around near our seniors. Soon, our "intensive"(well it was kinda intensive) training started.... Went to the music room with everyone else and all of us started introducing ourselves and also got to play a game which is abit like angel and ward but this time, when ever the person who got your name see you doing something good then she will write to you about it. =D Started learning about posture which are required to uphold ,what the roles, behaviours and stuff we need to learn about and our presentation skills and confidence. Assigned to a family group which was filled with seriously cool and nice people. Amigos rock!!! =) Slept very late or early in the morning cause had to discuss about the work and stuff. Day2, woke up, did the every morning stuff, continued with all the discussion and exercising. Learnt more about posture and also had to dance to a song, I believe ( cOoL sOnG!) and at the end we did alot of silly and funny moves and was very happy of it cause it was really good!hehe =D Played captured the flag organised by our seniors which was seriously very fun, got captured twice! haha....At night we had to learn a french song and fortunately 3 of the pb knew french and divided us into groups and learnt the way to say it. The song is called, qui a le droit. Slept late or early in the morning that day but earlier than the first day. Day3, woke up and yup yup yup( same like above). Learnt more dance moves and postures and had to continue learning the stuff needed to be presented the next day, did alot more discussion that could really help us and last but not least, played whacko! Sang all the songs! Drank coffee and felt super hyper until i laughed at everyone who walked past me and go crazy and kept on singing songs with esther and mariann. Last night of the whole camp, felt really sad and slept really really late, shalln't say the time, hehe... Day4, the last day of the whole camp we performed everything we had learnt and at the end of the day when the camp was going to end, there was a sudden sadness feeling that struck me. can't believe gib is over. felt really really really sad. During gib i met alot of nice people and my family group rocks! The Amigos! =) Through this camp learnt alot of stuff about the pb and it is filled with alot of kind people. haha... Really sad its over, time passes so fast and shall never forget the sentence the teaher told us. Its not enough to know the words, words have to be crystalised into ACTION. Through this camp i had learnt alot of stuff. scpb rocks!
Lyris of qui a le droit
On m'avait dit : "Te pose pas trop de question, Tu sais petit c'est la vie qui t'répond, A quoi ca sert de vouloir tout savoir? Regarde en l'air et vois ce que tu peux voir"
On m'avait dit: "Faut écouter son père" Le mien a rien dit quand il s'est fait la paire Maman m'a dit: "t'es trop ptit pour comprendre" Et j'ai grandi avec une place à prendre
Qui a le droit Qui a le droit Qui a le droit de faire ca A un enfant qui croit vraiment C'que dise les grands On passe sa vie à dire merci Merci à qui? à quoi? A faire la pluie et le beau temps Pour des enfants à qui l'on ment
On m'avait dit: "les hommes sont tous pareils Y'a plusieurs dieu mais y'a qu'un seul soleil" Oui mais le soleil il brille ou bien il brule Tu meurs de soif ou bien tu bois des bulles
A toi aussi j'suis sur qu'on t'en a dit De belles histoires, tu parle, que des conneries Alors maintenant on se retrouve sur la route Avec nos peurs nos angoisses et nos doutes
Qui a le droit Qui a le droit Qui a le droit de faire ca A un enfant qui croit vraiment C'que dise les grands On passe sa vie à dire merci Merci à qui? à quoi? A faire la pluie et le beau temps Pour des enfants à qui l'on ment
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Disclaimer
Welcome to my blog of rants inspired through the scribbles of one's mind.
poem inspired by agatha, alex, celine
i starred at the fan on the celing,
lifting my watch to my eyes.
it was 12 am in the morning.
i looked out of the window
as i admired the clear night sky.
leaving my bed as i started to walk towards the table,
reaching out for that knife which laid there alone.
crying and crying,
as each crystal clear tear fell to the floor one by one.
feeling the fresh, cold blood rush out of my skin.
having its pain numbed by these falling tears.
and therefore. that was when the phrase,
"BLOODSHED TEARS" was formed :D
Name: Ruth Lee
A lost, confused soul wandering around this world with only a stick in one hand and a shield in the other. Birthdate: 21st Feb 1994
SCGS!!!
1PR 07. 2PR 08. 3CO 09. 4CO 10
Red Cross!!!
Fellow member of the CLAN (established in 2010)
Fellow Head of the L.U (established in 2010)
Fellow cactus cadet of E.C.C(established in 2008)
[Evil Cactus Clan]
Overall?
An unusual fwen who is in love with music and is contented with the simple pleasures :)
Pretty much just a lost confused soul wandering around this world with only a stick in one hand and a shield in the other.
But but! If you meet me one day, come up to mua and whack me on the back and you'll get a poke in return :D
but if you whack me when im holding something, expect a whack filled with torns >:)
But honestly?
Hmmm. Lets just say there's more than meets the eye
*grins*
A list of hopes:
chance to go star gazing
chance to enjoy the sunset at the sea side
chance to meet (people) in the future
chance to play lunia with me lunia buddy, wenqian
for both hands to clap instead of one
lots of stuff my dear friend, lots of stuff :) something i know one cannot achieve
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