Yooo. Presently on a 1hour and a half train ride o.o there's no Internet connection so just typin it out as a note on this little contraption and access blogger when Internet access is available, heh. Taiwans been a pretty cool place :D didn't get to take a pic with the "ghosts" lastnight though :S their make up was damn cool xD really miss my sis though, really different without her :S time passes so fast, too fast. Tomorrows monday, which means, results. I'm really scared.. And what's worst, I'm in Taiwan.. Really got to thanks those awesome peeps helpin me collect it tomorrow :D my confidence level on the other hand, is really really low. Sigh...
Where are you now as I'm thinking of you.
30 November, 1pm It's been 4 hours. Really scared. didn't manage to find connection last night, really hope to find connection tonight.
6.14pm just reached the hotel and there's no connection. Shoot. Was really planning to go online.
7.42pm Outside waiting for concert, found connection.
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11/28/2009 03:34:00 AM
Saturday, November 28, 2009
shouldnt be up especially when the fllghts in a few hours o.O shoot.
sigh. kinda prefer staying in singapore instead of going overseas :S heh heh but really grateful for the chance to step out of this clean and green little dot on the map but, its gonna be so dull without my sis, who is already on a plane somewhere high in the sky. heh. wish you a safe trip jie!!!
oh oh oh any important messages, feel free to send it to my email! :D gonna try accessing the internet there :S plus all the best to those getting their results back on monday :] bet you guys will do awesome :D
cj7 is such a cute and touching movie :]
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11/28/2009 01:32:00 AM
off to taiwan, back 8 days later.
peace.
desperate for your voice
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11/26/2009 06:11:00 PM
Thursday, November 26, 2009
oh my gosh, love you zahrah! :D went to school early in the mornin and managed to learn bout blogskins by zahrah the pro who helped to put heechul's pics there!!! wheee! thanks so muchhh :D plus uploading the pics now :]
going to go for dinner soon and stealin this moment to charge the handphone and upload a few pics on fb. heh heh o.O
off to dinnerr
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11/26/2009 12:29:00 AM
im stuck in dillusion. pathetic. idiotic. can't seem to wake up but yet, lured deeper into this illusion.
-pics that were once here-
heechul looks amazin and sizzlin hot :D man these pics would look awesome as a blogskin up there ^ fits super well too :]
tomorrows the day. bring it on.
tests are finally over but feelings not too good. sigh. plus life really sucks. heh. really tired. read up on the difference between love and infatuation and results, shocking o.O really love this song and the meaning behind it, amazing lyrics :] man, could you believe a lady thought i was a guy and pointed the directions to the gents when i asked her where the loo was o.O man, is my sense of fashion that bad o.O
How tempted she was to stand there. Not moving as step a the lorry came closer and closer. As music played loudly in her ears, blasting away as it covered the horns blown directly at her.
everytime i close my eyes, your face appears. all the words you once told me, all the promises i made to you. those promises i didnt keep well. the pathetic fool i am. that stare you gave. is there really something that you want to say, or is there something that is better off left unsaid.
if only you would just turn around.
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11/15/2009 01:20:00 AM
Sunday, November 15, 2009
you are a hotmess and i'm falling for you HEECHULIE!!! like you've never seen him before xD da da dum!!! :D he lost weight man! o.O he looks awesome and once again (and always), so so so so hot hot! *does hand actions once again*
man. struck by the flu o.O and the mucus is starting to turn green :S bahh. stuffing tissue up my nose isnt fun but it helps to stop the mucus from flowing out :S
yesterday yesterday was the last day of school :S bah.. gonna miss school. but still going back on monday for study camp :D WHEEEE!!! yeah i know i dont really got much a life but im proud of it man! MUAHAHAH! :D bahh. staying at home too much makes your mind boggle. o.O
school for the past few days have been pretty interesting plus sitting next to sarah lim and shanna can seriously make you goo crazy and corrupted O.O HAHAH! plus!!! regarding the class montage! will upload it after my res plus since its a pretty huge file it may take a while :S seriously gotta thank to shanna/lao wang for making the second montage and staying up all the way to 3 plus on the webcam :D thanks man!
bahh really need to apologise to my rc angel for not replying despite promising to plus wenqian D: WENQIANN ARH WENQIAN!!! im so sorry larh D: will sign up for gmail later in the morning k!!! D:
sigh. wont be posting for a while till after my res :S sooo good bye bloggie! good bye heechulie! *hugs laptop* shall tag peeps on fb later under my blanket if im lucky :D man hope it works :S
3CO!!! i'll really miss you guys!!! plus you guys must always remember no matter what. Once a 3co ian, always a 3co ian :D plus we'll meet up during the hols yeah? *HUGS*
shots taken O.O along with shanna's awesome print screening with coco's face being a little distorted, HAHAH!
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11/05/2009 12:06:00 AM
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Hello, blogging under my blanket. Sigh, finally figured how to click the box o.o
Have you ever thought bout something so much that it just sticks there in your mind, dreams, thoughts and mood? Sigh. The feeling sucks yeah? Life hasn't been going smoothly but yet we still gotta face it yeah? Ah just remembered, hadn't shreded stuff, bahh.
I feel like dying. I just want to escape from all of this. It may be the most cowardly way to avoid my troubles but, it's the best way to numb the pain. Just imagine. Not needing to face anymore problems as your carefree spirit watches over the ones you love, being there for them be it night or day. Sigh. Idiotic thoughts eh.
All the places I used to escape to. There's no further use any longer. Let me be, isolating myself to the very corner of the room, mumbling words to myself as I slowly go insane.
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11/02/2009 11:12:00 PM
Monday, November 2, 2009
as each day passes by, my emotions are slowly drifting further and further away. heechul's past style here is amazin O.O
a picture of them for their concert around june/july this year :D their hairstyles are totally awesome xD plus heechulie's hair is bright red O.O
today's tea expedition was pretty interesting o.O brought back alot of memories though. of how we all used to sit together in sec1, laughing away as life was so perfect for us all. but right now, one by one you guys left the school, slowly losing touch with one another. man, i miss you guys. i really do :S sigh.
i shall stand afar and stare. i wont do anything else but that. man. how much longer am i gonna keep up with childishness.
kill me, just stab me. its so much better than being dead than feeling dead. im losing all my understandings bout friendships. bout trust. whats trust. all these words coming one by one by one, then another, then another, then another. whats the point of saying all these weightless words when you dont mean it. theres no point making one happy for one moment then throw it aside later. im getting ignorant. no. i am ignorant. starting to feel so numb to this. seriously. what the hell is trust when the other party throws it aside just like that after making a promise. just wake up..
after watching last week's talentime, it really brought back so many memories. their performances were awesome that i cant deny but the feeling of performing it as a class is even better :] 2pr 08!!! missing you guys man :S
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11/01/2009 11:29:00 PM
Sunday, November 1, 2009
no matter how much i felt like running up to you, your back was enough to make me smile. staying faithful to dear 27 year old HEECHULIE! :D seung ri is 19! O.O GOOD LUCK JIE!!! :D all the best for your chinese man! and may the force be with you :]
alrightooo, off to snoozin sooon :D after packing :] lets all sit down tomorrow and sip chinese tea O.O
scold me. scold me for being stubborn. stubborn enough to not stop loving you. call me immature. immature in still believing that you might feel the same way as i do. sigh. bahh humbug.
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Disclaimer
Welcome to my blog of rants inspired through the scribbles of one's mind.
poem inspired by agatha, alex, celine
i starred at the fan on the celing,
lifting my watch to my eyes.
it was 12 am in the morning.
i looked out of the window
as i admired the clear night sky.
leaving my bed as i started to walk towards the table,
reaching out for that knife which laid there alone.
crying and crying,
as each crystal clear tear fell to the floor one by one.
feeling the fresh, cold blood rush out of my skin.
having its pain numbed by these falling tears.
and therefore. that was when the phrase,
"BLOODSHED TEARS" was formed :D
Name: Ruth Lee
A lost, confused soul wandering around this world with only a stick in one hand and a shield in the other. Birthdate: 21st Feb 1994
SCGS!!!
1PR 07. 2PR 08. 3CO 09. 4CO 10
Red Cross!!!
Fellow member of the CLAN (established in 2010)
Fellow Head of the L.U (established in 2010)
Fellow cactus cadet of E.C.C(established in 2008)
[Evil Cactus Clan]
Overall?
An unusual fwen who is in love with music and is contented with the simple pleasures :)
Pretty much just a lost confused soul wandering around this world with only a stick in one hand and a shield in the other.
But but! If you meet me one day, come up to mua and whack me on the back and you'll get a poke in return :D
but if you whack me when im holding something, expect a whack filled with torns >:)
But honestly?
Hmmm. Lets just say there's more than meets the eye
*grins*
A list of hopes:
chance to go star gazing
chance to enjoy the sunset at the sea side
chance to meet (people) in the future
chance to play lunia with me lunia buddy, wenqian
for both hands to clap instead of one
lots of stuff my dear friend, lots of stuff :) something i know one cannot achieve
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