5/28/2010 11:58:00 PM
Friday, May 28, 2010
a short summary of one's life.
sec1: missed primary like crazy at the beginning of the year. met the love and source that never failed to bring upon happiness, red cross. not only that, formed a clique and met my best friend who helped me through all the hardships in life. made many excuses for friends to come over to chat for long periods of time. met many awesome friends in class and we got closer, finding so much in common and doing the craziest things in life. entered the board. hyperness accumulated by every person walking by.
sec2: confused, lost soul which enjoyed going to school, red cross and everyday was like a dream till one finally faced how everything was ending. a year of sadness. many of my friends left the school, so many new things happened. soon, heard something and learnt lesson that life will never be prefect and sometimes, people aren't what they truly seem. became a cadet of the ECC (Evil Cactus Clan) . slowly bit by bit, everything starting tearing apart. ranging from the losing of friends to the stepping down of something which was really important to me. having nothing but a best friend by my side. getting addicted to lunia and calling my lunia bud up almost everyday, meeting online to increase our levels till the singapore server closed down. made excuses for friends to come over to chat for long periods of time. almost died of crying nonstop after reading several words on a sms which was meant for my own good but yet really happy that it was cleared up at the end of the day.
sec3: learnt something bout myself, something against my own morals. suffered from insomnia due to a few people and certain reasons which happened throughout the year. we took over and became ncos. went to a first CATS concert. grew distant to that one best friend, to my friends. quarelled with a friend who we thought we would never fight with forever. missed a chance and being forced to let go off something which was within my grasp despite of all the external help i got. fought really hard to come up at the end of the year during the time which risked many unhappy things. fell in love with my class 3co. tried to download lunia over and over again but still to no avail. met a really awesome person at the end of the year and got closer to 2 childhood guys. constantly returned to sc during the nov and dec hols to play basketball with a friend. bought me first bball. a year of depression, tears, truth and joy. the pain, led to losing 1/5 of me.
sec4: a half dead freak walking around with a tired and negative mindset. burnt out since the beginning of the year and having one's energy cut off earlier and earlier each night. became more idiotic through certain actions and became more open. fell even more in love with class, 4co. thankful for meeting certain people and really good friends who make life so much more interesting and worth while. formed the alliance of the LU against the ALA. finally let go of something which once killed me. os are coming up and anxiety increasing. still going breathless when seeing stuff.
still in sec4, typing these words with 3/5 of me left. recalling how the past years in sc have changed me, physically and emotionally. for the better or for the worst? i dont know.
was visiting my past self by reading all the blog posts ranging from sec1 to sec4. in sec1 till sec3, many posts were bout red cross, always having a "HAHAHAHA", pure crazyness and randomness, hardly having anything morbit unless a poem which was meant as a joke. sec2 was also a year of twillight. sec3 started to be filled heechul and the "laughters" started to fade off as the end of the year became closer and closer. sec4? was just dull. now? im typing this post.
what if, i ended it all today.
writing the last page of the book.
will i regret?
♥
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