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5/07/2009 09:55:00 PM

Thursday, May 7, 2009

heyyys sorry for takin so long :S well, heres it is! xD hahah!!! :D

dear alex,
you are damn nice, super talented in singing, seriously not fat or ugly (NOT EVEN CLOSE) and super funny that can sometimes even lead me to choke on my food while reading that short few numbered words, HAHA!!! xD

thanks wenqian!!!!! aw man plus so sorry for the suddeness, heh heh :]
sorry trees :S

i cant stand it.
how is it that when its infront of me
i cannot achieve it.
all those times i cried for it,
hoping for the opportunity once again.
today its back but no.
i cannot fufil that wish.
now it stands right infront of me.
just one more step to that dream. that very dream i have wished for since young.
but no im not allowed to.
i have no one to blame but myself.
how idoitic i really feel right now.
what an idoit.
that day i left, that day i told myself i never wanted to encounter again
hurt me so much in the heart.
i knew this day would come sooner or later
why this bad. why this fast?
im sorry the impacts too huge.
the reasons and tears too much.
but why all these tears and sorrow?
when its me whos not willing to try.
when its me feeling too afraid to ask once more.
continuously pondering over it.

♥

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Welcome to my blog of rants inspired through the scribbles of one's mind.

poem inspired by agatha, alex, celine
i starred at the fan on the celing,
lifting my watch to my eyes.
it was 12 am in the morning.
i looked out of the window
as i admired the clear night sky.
leaving my bed as i started to walk towards the table,
reaching out for that knife which laid there alone.
crying and crying,
as each crystal clear tear fell to the floor one by one.
feeling the fresh, cold blood rush out of my skin.
having its pain numbed by these falling tears.
and therefore. that was when the phrase,
"BLOODSHED TEARS" was formed :D

HAHAH!

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Photo: Zahrah / Ruth ♥
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Prologue

Name: Ruth Lee
A lost, confused soul wandering around this world with only a stick in one hand and a shield in the other.
Birthdate: 21st Feb 1994
SCGS!!!
1PR 07. 2PR 08. 3CO 09. 4CO 10
Red Cross!!!
Fellow member of the CLAN (established in 2010)
Fellow Head of the L.U (established in 2010)
Fellow cactus cadet of E.C.C(established in 2008)
[Evil Cactus Clan]

Overall?
An unusual fwen who is in love with music and is contented with the simple pleasures :)
Pretty much just a lost confused soul wandering around this world with only a stick in one hand and a shield in the other.
But but! If you meet me one day, come up to mua and whack me on the back and you'll get a poke in return :D
but if you whack me when im holding something, expect a whack filled with torns >:)

But honestly?

Hmmm. Lets just say there's more than meets the eye

*grins*

A list of hopes:
chance to go star gazing
chance to enjoy the sunset at the sea side
chance to meet (people) in the future
chance to play lunia with me lunia buddy, wenqian
for both hands to clap instead of one
lots of stuff my dear friend, lots of stuff :)
~~something i know one cannot achieve~~

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