4/10/2009 10:28:00 PM
Friday, April 10, 2009
growing weaker and weaker as each living day passes by.
went for pw at macs today with constance, maryanne, pearl and xueqi, haha! bought 4 ice creams from macs that the salesperson at the counter stared at me wierdly as i smiled back wierdly at her after ordering another vanilla ice cream :S after pw, went to pearl and xueqi 's church, was pretty fun and awesome and totally different from the experience during 2006 :] haha! this time was no not much jumping and stuff but this time, it was alot more meaningful and deep along with a huge message.
as we all closed our eyes and lowered our heads,
words were spoken from the stage.
talking deeply about the love for the lord.
about how he would always be there when we were down.
helping us fill that hole in our hearts filled with sorrow.
that moment,
all those scenes flashed past my mind.
i felt useless as i held it all within.
all of a sudden someone came along,
asking bout the experience and my feelings.
all of a sudden tears started to gather,
smiling away hoping it would dissapear.
but this strange feeling aroused within me.
i broke down as we said a prayer.
never feeling such a feeling ever before
and yet these little numbered words,
brought comfort to my heart.
-
i took in deep breaths as i rose from my bed.
it was all a dream. yet it felt so real...
"no. this is not true. no. please dont"
tears streamed down my eyes.
"no please dont. are you joking?"
you shook your head.
"im really migrating back home."
"please no."
i cried so hard as my knees fell to the ground.
this is not true, its not real. is it?
"no, no.. this cant be happening."
i clutched my head as you stared down.
"no. this is not true. please dont. will you come back?"
you shrugged your shoulders.
"no. please, please dont go."
this song is dedicated for those people, whom i sincerly would like to say these words to them. just two words. i'm sorry.
Everybody knows that I was such a fool to ever let go of you
Baby I was wrong
Yeah I know I said we'd be better off alone
It was time that we moved on
I know I broke your heart, I didn't mean to break your heart
But baby here I am
Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth and now I'm crawling back to you
I know you're in there and you can make me wait
But I'm not gonna wait
It's the least that I can do, just to tell you face to face
I was lying to myself, now I'm dying in this hell
Girl I know you're mad, I can't blame you for being mad
But baby here I am
Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and now I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth and now I'm crawling back to you
If you could see these tears I'm crying
Touch these hands that can't stop shaking
Hear my heart that's barely beating
You will see a different man
But baby here I am
Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and I'm crawling back to you (come on)
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in? (let me in)
I was running from the truth, now I'm crawling back to you
-crawling back to you
by backstreet boys
♥
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