Hey, somehow sensing a mosquito flying around o.O Its going to be Halloween tomorrow! Or maybe today o.O hehe :] ahhh. Happy Halloween :] sometimes its difficult to go tricky-o-treating in Singapore, cause people usually wonder why you are standing outside their house :] but the memories will be worth it I guess :D haha! Wonder what happens if someone says trick, hehe :] remember dressing up as a phantom wizard a loooong time ago, MUAHAHHA! So, anyone planning to go tonight? Haha! :D have fun man! MUAHAHHAHAHHA! *poof and vanishes*
While starring into the night, something caught my eye. My brother rose from his bed, deep in slumber. He started walking towards the windows, slowly pushing them open one by one. “ what the hell are you doing?” These six words caused him to stop. He starred back with tired eyes and returned back to his bed. Covered him with his blanket, noticing a very peaceful look, one without worries at all. An unforgettable night. --- Thinking and thinking. So many things filling ones mind. A light ahead shines so brightly. Why cant I forget its impact. After hearing the whole story today. I think to myself why I chose to walk into the darkness. Where I knew I would regret. Instead of walking to the light. Sigh. it never seems to leave. I’m so sorry --- Reading the words over and over again. So many words appearing in my mind. What do you take this as? What is the main cause of this? What do you expect? What are you exactly expecting till your approval? For you to be pleased. I read the words but I don’t understand. No reaction towards this? Smiles always there. Are we on the same boat? Hoping today would be ok, But I was wrong. Walking back on the usual path we used to walk, Thinking about the cold atmosphere that surrounded us, Just like strangers. Strangers who met for the first time, At the beginning. Everything we think about is some how alike. Reminding me of the past we used to have.
I feel really confused about everything. Sometimes I really feel like letting it all out, but I some how cant. As I lie on the bed tonight, watching the clock tick as time passes by, thinking about solutions, answers and decisions and how I even plan to face them. i am feeling so weak right now.
why must there always be goodbyes.
I’m strong on the surface But not all the way through I’ve never been perfect But neither have you -Leave out all the rest By Linkin Park
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10/29/2008 11:32:00 PM
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Hey, thanks. thank you scpb :]
Everytime I stop and stare. I think about today. About the expression I never thought I would see. About how it seemed like it was for the last time. It some how appears in my mind. sigh. I’m so sorry.
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10/28/2008 12:07:00 AM
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
The feeling of blood turning cold. Thinking of how I never expected it to come. The number of chances given to me till today. Something which I never thought would come has came. What else can I do but accept the fact. Regretting on my actions made. Its too late to regret. Its impossible to gaining both the profit And the loss at the same time. Cant help but hold the tears back today and tomorrow. Yet see it fall as I type the very words you and I see.
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10/24/2008 09:08:00 PM
Friday, October 24, 2008
hello, cant believe that school has ended already. sigh. time passses very fast and sometimes too fast.
remembering how in the past many once told me how being in sec2 was the best year. i never understood what they said till today, after experiencing what its like. remembering how sec1 was like and its difference in sec2. sec2 is seriously the awesomest year and will really miss 2pr, haha :] cant believe we are going to be sec3 soon o.O haha! :] rock on 2pr! remember that we will forever go together! stay cool! we will forever be pro till we grow old!!! haha :D
after getting hand sanitizer squirted in the eye and mouth just two words to describe it all. it burns. i swear it does. :]
the understanding of not being able to spend your last few last moments there kind of kills.
hoping for the impossible and cant seem to be believing whats going on.
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10/22/2008 11:15:00 PM
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
hello, got report book back. argh. plus tomorrows the last day of school, sigh. so fast. time passes so quickly, just as it comes, it goes. feeling so weak and thirsty today for some strange reason. maybe its because i thirst for blood! haha! *shows fangs* hehe :] anything is possible right? nvm, dont think about just now but now. HELLO! haha! sigh :] really gonna miss 2pr, you guys really rock man :] rock on!
i guess it has really come to reality. next monday may be the worst day of my life.
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10/19/2008 10:25:00 PM
Sunday, October 19, 2008
phone got confistcated.
helloooo!!! :] the performances yesterday rocked out louddd!!! 2PR ROCK ON!!! *plays an imaginary rock guitar* DE DE DE AOOO, YEAHHHHH!!!! hehe :] we shall forever stay as one. one people, one class, one 2pr!!! thats the way how we could be forever moreee! retro rocks :D haha! we go together 2pr like rama lama lama ke ding a de dinga a dong!!!!!!!! HAHAH! :D
darning fun :] goood times, good times... spending a large percentage of time on the com watching the video again and again, HAHA!!! thanks ariel for the video plus thanks celine for the pics!!!
could i ask you a question? why did this start? how did it start? and you keep saying that i dont treasure friendship and i never gave you support. to tell you the truth, i trusted you. i tried giving you support, i really did. but how would you feel when a very good friend of yours always try her best to change the topic or cover her ears when you ask something that is very important?
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10/17/2008 09:59:00 PM
Friday, October 17, 2008
hey, the concert is tomorrow!!! haha :] GO 2PR!!! :] all the best everyone!!!
its really dreadful thinking about it how it is really happening hope it would change and the adventure will still carry on throughout these 3 years. sigh.
heres a quiz to prove why i need to get a life, haha! :]
1.The last person to tag you is? xueqi shifu *bows* 2. Your relationship with him/her? music shifu :D 3. Your 5 impression towards him/her? -super goood at singing SHIFU!!!! HAHA! :] -can give fierce and scary stares o.O -haven't ended our photoshop competition yet :] -can make a seriously good accent -can make someone laugh till ones tears flow out o.O 4. The most memorable thing that he/she has ever done for you? drawing a picture of wont go home without you when playing pictionary 5. The most memorable words that he/she has say to you? **** u. 6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will... run away and never look back and build a civilisation of rocks! HAHA! :] 7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will... practice the "evil staring" skill everyday and stare a more evil stare 8. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on... hmmm 9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is... finally achieving in pushing her down the chair and laughing my head off 10. The most desirable things to do for him/her is... become a faithful tudi who will go HELLOOOOO SHIFU! :D 11. Overall impression towards him/her is... darning funny and someone who can give really scary stares, haha!!! 12. How do you think the people around you will feel about you? weird? Crazy? Boring? :] 13. The character for you for yourself is? crazy, and super boring, haha! :] 14. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is? many things my dear friend, many things 15. The most ideal person you want to be is? someone who will finally dare to speak up and become more stronger in the inside. 16. For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them. thank you, I would never be able to live up till this very day without you. Thanks :] 17. Bra or panties? haha! random question :D wonder what the main and secret meaning this question is supposed to mean :] 18. Chocolate or ice-cream? ice-cream!!! Haha! 19. 10 people to tag. hmmm, hello! If you are reading this very message, I just got one thing to say, “tag!” haha! :] you cant escape the evil eyes of the internet! Muahahhaa! I got to get a life. 20. Who is number 2 having a relationship with? sorry not sure, do numbers date? 19. Is 3 a male or a female? I have a strong feeling its gonna be a female :D 20. If number 7 and 10 got together, would that be a good thing? haha I guess so :] 7+10= 17! HAHA! so cool! its my register number :D 21. How about 5 and 8? hmmm, 5+8= 13 :D HAHA! 13 is a cool number!!! 22. What is number 1 studying about? number 1 doesn’t seem to be reply my telephaty message o.O 23. When was the last time you had a chat with them? during my math exam :D 24. Is number 4 single? haha yup! an integer too :D 25. Say something about number 2. the number 2 is an even number and is in the number 22 :D haha! 26. What do you think about number 3 and 6 being together? 3+6=9! Hmm, 9 is another cool number!!! HAHA! :D have a feeling things are looking great :] 27. Describe number 9. its an odd number and is in the number 29 :D 28. What will you do if number 6 and 7 fights? We will get a negative number
i could hear from your voice that it was a lie.
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10/15/2008 12:06:00 AM
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Today and yesterday. Ahhh, sigh. Didn’t do very well or well at all. Thanks man.
I admit. It hurts, it was disappointing. Somehow thinking about the time sitting there And taking a glance at the test paper. The thick markers and red ink used. So afraid and irritated. Tomorrow is when I see their reactions. Just scold me, I deserve it. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. Sigh.
Hey, thanks 2pr :] thank you :]
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10/11/2008 11:43:00 PM
Saturday, October 11, 2008
open house was pretty fun today :] haha! the words on the script paper kinda stuck in my head, ahhh. hehe, oh yup! the pie rocks man! haha! was pretty different from last year's but still as fun :D
this video says it all.
Every time I have a thought, a memory Of all the bad things that you did to me Everybody talks Everyone was shocked It nearly broke my heart when I heard And it was all wrong, it was all wrong Why did you do it? Why did you say it all again? Why did you do it? Why did you say it All along? Why did you do it? Why did you say it? I want to know Why did you do it? Why did you do it? Why did you do it And say it all again? Why did you do it? It wasn't about the truth, it wasn't about the lie Its just the fact that you made me cry
- Why by the Naked Brothers Band
not wanting to say anything any longer. it always repeats again and again.
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10/04/2008 01:11:00 PM
Saturday, October 4, 2008
exams are finally over :] hehe, well not really but one more paper, one more!!!
shadows in the dark, coming out into the light. revealing their two abilities in one.
made a random time lapsing video last night for fun, haha :] really wierd and dull video. the rubics cube kinda broke, heh.
random time lapsing
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Disclaimer
Welcome to my blog of rants inspired through the scribbles of one's mind.
poem inspired by agatha, alex, celine
i starred at the fan on the celing,
lifting my watch to my eyes.
it was 12 am in the morning.
i looked out of the window
as i admired the clear night sky.
leaving my bed as i started to walk towards the table,
reaching out for that knife which laid there alone.
crying and crying,
as each crystal clear tear fell to the floor one by one.
feeling the fresh, cold blood rush out of my skin.
having its pain numbed by these falling tears.
and therefore. that was when the phrase,
"BLOODSHED TEARS" was formed :D
Name: Ruth Lee
A lost, confused soul wandering around this world with only a stick in one hand and a shield in the other. Birthdate: 21st Feb 1994
SCGS!!!
1PR 07. 2PR 08. 3CO 09. 4CO 10
Red Cross!!!
Fellow member of the CLAN (established in 2010)
Fellow Head of the L.U (established in 2010)
Fellow cactus cadet of E.C.C(established in 2008)
[Evil Cactus Clan]
Overall?
An unusual fwen who is in love with music and is contented with the simple pleasures :)
Pretty much just a lost confused soul wandering around this world with only a stick in one hand and a shield in the other.
But but! If you meet me one day, come up to mua and whack me on the back and you'll get a poke in return :D
but if you whack me when im holding something, expect a whack filled with torns >:)
But honestly?
Hmmm. Lets just say there's more than meets the eye
*grins*
A list of hopes:
chance to go star gazing
chance to enjoy the sunset at the sea side
chance to meet (people) in the future
chance to play lunia with me lunia buddy, wenqian
for both hands to clap instead of one
lots of stuff my dear friend, lots of stuff :) something i know one cannot achieve
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