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9/23/2007 12:04:00 AM

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Shouldn't be blogging but, yeah... something really irritating happened yesterday(friday). Its just so argh... i bought a present for someone but at the end she just did something. and i can tell you that something is really hurtful and irriating. argh...what is your problem? seriously.

The night before, i took out all the money in my piggybank,slowly counted them and placed them in my wallet.When i woke up,i went to school,thinking about what to get for you,
remembering the promise i made for you a year before.Went with a friend, almost spending my whole recess in the bookshop choosing a present for you.And when it almost ended, i found it.
thinking one might not be enough, i bought two cause of the period of time.wondering if you forgotten.Anxiously waiting for the day to go by and when it finally came.The bell rang and i ran out the classroom as our recesses started at diffrent times, and started looking around for you.Finally i found you, i ran up to you and called your name, yet you turned and started whispering,"oh shes talking to me."I clutched the present tightly in my hands,telling myself"i am going to fail." i repeated the words yet you continued.
I walked away but something told me to go back and i did.I repeated what i did and you did the same. Soon i knew i failed despite what my friends said, i continued to walk on. I went to the court searching for basketballs but none of them were in sight. I just walked on and soon i heard footsteps and saw them. true friends. i suddenly let my emotions take over me and walked on.
"oh she is talking to me." these words echoed in my mind and the actions she did repeated again and again. I heard voices and came out. There stood true friends who were always there for me. I started saying words and they patiently listened. I will not make the same mistakes that you did, I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery and I will not betray the way you did. and i would like to thank wenqian, siti, jiaping and charissa who had been there for me during that period of time and those who made me laugh that day.

Rage overcame me,
not ablling to overcome it.
Tears started to sting my eyes,
it flowed downwars and burned.
I felt so much rage
and never had i felt this before.
Thinking about it everyday,
forcing to fake, a smile and laugh.
i really detest all of this.
i detest you,
i am sorry but i really do.

♥

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Welcome to my blog of rants inspired through the scribbles of one's mind.

poem inspired by agatha, alex, celine
i starred at the fan on the celing,
lifting my watch to my eyes.
it was 12 am in the morning.
i looked out of the window
as i admired the clear night sky.
leaving my bed as i started to walk towards the table,
reaching out for that knife which laid there alone.
crying and crying,
as each crystal clear tear fell to the floor one by one.
feeling the fresh, cold blood rush out of my skin.
having its pain numbed by these falling tears.
and therefore. that was when the phrase,
"BLOODSHED TEARS" was formed :D

HAHAH!

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Prologue

Name: Ruth Lee
A lost, confused soul wandering around this world with only a stick in one hand and a shield in the other.
Birthdate: 21st Feb 1994
SCGS!!!
1PR 07. 2PR 08. 3CO 09. 4CO 10
Red Cross!!!
Fellow member of the CLAN (established in 2010)
Fellow Head of the L.U (established in 2010)
Fellow cactus cadet of E.C.C(established in 2008)
[Evil Cactus Clan]

Overall?
An unusual fwen who is in love with music and is contented with the simple pleasures :)
Pretty much just a lost confused soul wandering around this world with only a stick in one hand and a shield in the other.
But but! If you meet me one day, come up to mua and whack me on the back and you'll get a poke in return :D
but if you whack me when im holding something, expect a whack filled with torns >:)

But honestly?

Hmmm. Lets just say there's more than meets the eye

*grins*

A list of hopes:
chance to go star gazing
chance to enjoy the sunset at the sea side
chance to meet (people) in the future
chance to play lunia with me lunia buddy, wenqian
for both hands to clap instead of one
lots of stuff my dear friend, lots of stuff :)
~~something i know one cannot achieve~~

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